Rollercoaster Week!

oh my god I’ve lost my mind. So last night I got up in the middle of the night and decided to eat myself into a coma after suffering from one of those migraines that turns you into a vampire. Super sonic painful hearing, light that burns the retinas, and my personal favorite, a temperament of “I HATE YOU PEOPLE”. :p

I skipped my monday gym day because of this damned migraine and felt like a monster for it  😦 I never raelized just how much the gym has become an S&M addiction. I hate it, but I love it.

Cardio is a hell of a drug!

So I woke up today, headacheless, and decided to get stuff done! I filled out lawyer papers (that’s a whole other ridiculous story), set up the makeshift ghetto rigged studio and shot new pictures of my crafts to sell, had a meeting with my pal Alan regarding Usana and the amazing changes it’s brought to my life, and finally made the most amazing dinner ever.

By the way if anyone has any questions regarding USANA and the Reset program, please feel free to ask me! It was a huge success for me and I’m always here to help you! 😀 It not only helped me reset my calorie goals and food intake, it also helped me reset me mentality toward food. It was the trigger that got me past my plateau slump and I cannot praise it enough! 😀

NOT FOR THE VEGAN AT HEART!

I made, get this: Ranchero Carne Asada Fajita Salad.

No, you read that right. 😛 omg sooo good. Warning the meat is red from the marinade. it’s not raw LOL sorry.

want the recipe!?

1 lb of citrus marinated ranchero carne asada (see your local butcher counter) cubed or strips

1 large green onion chopped

1 roma tomato chopped

1/2 of a yellow pepper julianned

1/2 of an orance pepper julianned

1 cup baby spinach leaves

Garlic Salt, Dill and Pepper to taste

1 tbsp vegetable oil

Toss the meat veggies and spices into a large saucepan with the oil and sautee the crud out of them until everything is tender. The meat will still look red due to marinade so make sure you take a piece of meat and cut/taste to make sure it’s at the cooked level you want it at. cover for a few minutes to allow it to steam the marinade into a sauce. This is how i avoid carbs! I NEVER add flour to make sauces. i like my sauces to be slightly watery especially for this plate because i use it as a dressing! 😀

serve the fajitas over a bed of mixed greens, pour a lil sauce on it and squeeze a lemon wedge over the plate and enjoy!!! 😀 It was so good it was ridiculous.

It was around 285 calories a serving! which is super low for a meat infused meal! 😀

My Fitness Pal calculated the recipe nutritional stats as such:

282 Calories
6g Carbs
14g Fat
32g Protein
382mg Sodium
1g Fiber

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Goodbye Reset, Hello New Life!

It’s almost lunchtime so I’ll make this brief. Tomorrow I’ll take the after picture. 🙂 I’m not cheating in any way on my new diet and that’s a good thing.

Summary: I spent 5 days on shakes bars fruits and veggies. No Meat No direct Dairy. I was scared out of my mind that I wouldn’t be able to do it because I have spent that last 20 years eating pretty much anything I want to excess.

Hello, My name is Yas and I’m addicted to eating. I realized that it isn’t food, but the act of eating in general. Even now I feel the pull. Every hour I’m thinking “I should eat.” but unlike before, I stop and ask myself “Am I really hungry or just being crazy?” 9 times out of 10, I’m just being crazy.

I still don’t know what it feels like to be really hungry. Or maybe I do and don’t recognize it since it’s been years since I have allowed myself to get hungry before eating. I don’t even know.  By the 3rd day, I was feeling like my world was changing. I learned so much about myself and about society in general. I learned how hurtful FAT can be. Mainly because we refuse to face our bodies and choices. I have learned that I don’t want to be thin. I’ll be happy to stop at just under 200 lbs. I learned that the people I love the most will take two sides:

I support you! Don’t eat that!

I support you! Eat more!

It’s sad but it was really a confirmation and test of my strength. A strength I always thought I never had. I always thought I had no willpower. You can ask my best friends. They will flat out tell you that my biggest complaint about myself was not being fat but not being strong enough to change it.

Apparently I was bullshitting myself because in 5 days I’ve lost 8.2 lbs which makes me 27 lbs down from my original start weight.

I know now that I am a strong woman in every way possible! I can do this! I deserve to love my body enough to be healthy! I deserve real happiness. Not denial. Not lies. Not fear. PURE HAPPINESS.

So now starts my new life. The next phase of my life. I did 5 days at approx. 1200 calories a day which is the normal calorie intake for a healthy person (and 1000 calories less than what i started at!) and survived. I’m going to up that to 1500 calories. This is my daily goal. Up the protein and nutrients drastically drop the carbs. consider a modified paleo diet. I am going to try to keep myself off of breads and stick to grains and rices for excess carb content. Complex carbs. NO MORE SWEETS OR BREADS! they just aren’t needed!

I CAN DO THIS.

On a sidenote: my life has hit rockbottom and with these changes, and actions of mine, life is starting to turn around. My employer is working with me to help me as i start a new path in my life (goodbye eHarmony! Thank you for everything you’ve done for me.) and I have a job interview next week. 🙂 everything happens for a reason and is caused by a choice. We decided where our lives go and how we handle it. Today is a good day….

Now if you’ll excuse me I’m making Udon Soup for lunch 😀

 

OH! FINALLY! THANK YOU USANA AND ALAN. I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU’VE CHANGED MY LIFE. 

Goodbye 25 lbs!!!

Big things my friends… Big things. I’m officially down 25 lbs. 25.8 lbs to be exact. 😀 this is it…. 5.2 lbs more and I’ll be below 300 lbs. Well, technicall 6.2 lbs. but dear god it’s so close I can taste it!

Sweet Jeebus the moment I reach it i’m celebrating by adding lemon to carrots. (sadtrombone) lol

Today was a horrible day from hell. I got up super late after not getting a drop of sleep until around 6am where my mom decided to wake me up to let me know a window on my car was down. I got up, rolled it up and proceeded to be awake for the next hour until i finally fell asleep. I woke at 11am dazed and irritated. I vegged in bed for a bit, ya know, to collect my bearings.

I went into the kitchen around noon and began the (now late) breakfast ritual. And then this happened:

 

Can you freakin believe it!? It was like a damned murder scene in my kitchen! or someone had explosive diarrhea   and that stuff is like pudding thickness so it took me forever to clean! Gonna be honest with you, I kinda freaked out. But once I calmed down, I mixed me another shake and went to retrieve my AM vitamins. I tossed the PM pack back to the box but apparently my aim was mysteriously off because I stood there in horror as I watched the pack slither it’s way down between the back of the stove and the wall!! WTF !?!?!?

So… Dejected I headed back to my room and didn’t actually finish my breakfast until around 12:45. maybe 1pm. 😦

I had a bar, then a plum, then my second shake not knowing what to do. by then it was 5:30pm and I was just so confused. I went to the gym and did a minimal burn today which I kinda hate but I was scared of overburning from taking in minimal calories! 😦 so 586 calories burned walking the treadmill) I headed home and made myself a salad for dinner, rolled up a pickle spear in some lunch meat and ate that no bread. i also had grapes and strawberries. I only ate 1137 calories and that’s only because i’m about to go eat a piece of cheese. I know that isn’t good. I’m well aware i’m WAY UNDER the calorie requirement for a body to function but it’s one only and it won’t be happening again. trust me.

On a lighter note, while laying here on my bed and typing this out, i rolled over for a moment and rested my hand on my chest in the center right below my breasts. and ya know what I felt??? my bones.

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!

I HAVE BONES. AND I CAN FEEL THEM NOW!!!

I’m starting to feel my clavicle and today i felt my Xiphoid Process which is at the lower tip of the Sternum (SCIENCE!!!). I’m so excited to know that I not only have bones but i can feel them now! gonna be honest, mom had breast cancer and at first I kinda freaked out and googled it LOL thank you google. you saved my life. 😛

So one more day left of the challenge, and I’m kinda nervous. I grocery shopped today and that was one of those tests, those moments where you ask yourself “Can I Do This!?” I bought an assload of veggies and fruits and planned meals as I wrote out a list. mom was very surprised when I came home with ZERO bread. I feel bad but I had to do what I had to do. If she wants it, she can buy it herself. Regardless It was a resounding success. I purchased a lot of meat but it was mostly fish and only one package of red meat for mom. I’m very excited as to how the next weeks will turn out with what I’ve learned so far. 😀

 

What you see is:

• oranges
• bananas
• peaches
• plums
• red and yellow bell peppers
• sunburst squash
• zuccini
• broccoli
• cilantro
• green beans
• bean sprouts
• mushrooms
• chop suey mix
• pears
• lemons
• 50/50 lettuce
• spinach
• green onion
• red potatoes

I can’t wait to get creative 😛

Hump Day. No really… Over the damned HUMP I go! :D

weeellll I woke up super late this morning which isn’t good as I had morning plans. But whatever. I got up, went straight to the scale, weight myself and then stood there for 10 minutes while the scale refused to read me. Conversation:

“Wtf scale !?”

“308 307 309 306 309 306 307”

“WTF SCALE!?!?!?”

“ERROR”

awesome.

I walked back into my room, sat for a moment, grumbled to myself about not even really being hungry but having to drink my breakfast (i’m never really hungry in the mornings although I’m fully aware that breakfast is the most important meal of the day) and then boom morning tinkle time hit.

Let me take a moment and let you know that this “cleanse” Reset has been less screaming on a toilet begging for bowel mercy type of cleanse but more hey.. i feel less heavy.. hah!

I went to the bathroom. (TMI? tuff tatas.)

I then pulled out the scale again and then pulled out the backup fact checker scale which is almost exactly a pound off. The fact checker is actually a pound less but I go by my fancy digital scale which is always a pound heavier. I don’t know which one is actually the most accurate. regardless, I always take the bigger number. Don’t know why!

“Ok scales, you better work this time” I say out loud standing in my bathroom naked.

“308.2 307.9 306.8 306.2 ”

Okay… final number 306.2 I can take that.

I step on the fact checker “305.8” BOOM.

I make this face and curse up a blue streak: 0_o

I get on my fancy schmancy digital again “306.8”

Fact Checker “305.4”

SONOFABITCH!

Digi: 306.8

Fact Checker: 306.8

BOOM!!!! so I’m takin that as a win.

I now weigh 306.8 which means:

I’VE LOST 5.4 LBS IN 3 DAYS. 

take that, fat! 😀 you can suck it! I’m 6.8 lbs from being under 300 lbs!!!! do you have any idea what that feels like!?!? no!?!? well let me tell ya!

HOLY SHIT AMAZEBALLS GOODNESS!!! it’s like winning the lottery sleeping with Gary Oldman from Dracula (not the old buttcrack victory roll hair dracula but the young hot long hair mustache of champions Vlad the impaler dracula) and Google calling me to tell me they wanna hire me for anything I want and move me to Palo Alto. THAT KINDA GOOD.

I don’t even know what to say. which is kinda a big fat lie because I never stop talking.

Regardless there ya go. so it works if you stick to it. I mean at least the first 3 days did.

I noticed today that as I was shaking my breakfast in the kitchen, that I actually missed real food. and not shit food like fast food, but real food. like baked chicken and broiled fish and oddly enough more veggies. I missed being able to eat more veggies.

“Have you lost your cotton pickin’ mind!?” you ask?

Yes. Yes I have. or at least the change has started within my brains to tell me that guess what?? you don’t have to eat like a jackass to enjoy good. Tasting the good stuff will always be better than engorging yourself on the bad. man what I wouldn’t do for a lean steak just 4 oz. they don’t even sell 4 oz at restaurants. It’s so ridiculous. Anyway, so I am blogging early to let you know that my hump day is freakin fantastic.

 

oh and I promise to do the elliptical post! 😀

Whoa… it’s not magic, it’s SCIENCE!!!!

309.4 lbs. HOLYMOLY so that’s 2.8 lbs down from yesterday. that’s a bit amazing. we’ll see if it’s just an initial thing or a trend tomorrow but holy moly!!!

good morning! Shake #1 went with vanilla this time for breakfast and I’ve decided it’s actually my favorite flavor! it tastes like a less potent less psychotically sweet cake batter. :p I actually like it. I feel much better today.  I hope it goes better. yesterday I learned so much that today I’m hoping to just chill out. tomorrow is my mid weigh in. I’m kinda nervous about that.

Ok so now that like 12 hours has passed since that first chunk of this post, I have decided to keep this baby short 😛 You see….. I did pretty well today. I woke up, drank my breakfast, frogged a project, at a snack bar, restarted the project, drank my lunch, had a few grapes, ate another snack bar, hit the gym hardcore tonight, came home, drank my dinner, ate broccoli spinach and finished off with a tiny bowl of strawberries!

Lessons: I can’t watch food tv. I couldn’t even watch Gordon Ramsey scream at people over their lazy cooking because all I kept thinking was “well that’s not that bad, I’d eat it.” this is how I knew I was still dangerous. LOL

I am only as strong as I allow myself to be. I can puss out right now go stuff my face full of lunch meat and cheese and be a happy camper. Until tomorrow when I realize that I’m officially larger than a baby elephant and can be compared to a Gorilla. I really don’t need some lady trying to tame me in the jungle while some asshat tries to cut off my hamhock sized hands because i’m fat and they’ve confused me for an endangered species….

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Ok that might have gone too far LOL

I also learned that chocolate is good as normal, Strawberry is amazing if you blend it in your blender bottle and leave it in the freezer for a lil bit to get nice and ice tundra style cold. I actually drank it with glee. :p

I think The whole point of this 5 day Reset is to reteach the human mind portion control from an internal perspective. It’s teaching your stomach what a real portion should feel like and how much food you should be intaking and so on. Instead of the mass amounts of fried BS we’re so used to stuffing down our gullets. I was trying to explain that to my mom this time. She’s actaully watching me and realizing that with investment comes strength. It’s like you get what you pay for. If you’re not willing to invest in yourself you’re tellin the world you’re worth ziltch. FO REALZ!?!? are you worth ziltch? I kinda thought I was. I was just like hey… I’ve been fat since the dawn of (my) time. No biggie. I LOVE MY CURVES.

LOL yay for obesity! I’m on on the voluptuous cheer leading squad for the vaguely curvy people!!!

wait… no. NO I’M NOT. you know why??? because curves are subjective. You can have safe curves, hairpin curves, or holy shit we’re gonna die curves. but that never constitutes health! are you at least trying to be healthy? do you love yourself enough to?

Regardless… I do. HAH!

Tonight i feel kinda energized. I KICKED ASSSSSSS at the gym tonight. I burned:

1,097 calories in 60 minutes running the elliptical.

I’m over 30o lbs. what’s youre excuse again!?!?

LOL i’m an ass tonight. I’m gonna cut this short. I leave you with dinner shots of greens and reds. 🙂

 

PS remind me to one day tell you the tale of Yas and the abusive relationship with the elliptical also known as How I Made the Elliptical My Bitch 😛

Sodium, you sonofabitch! USANA Reset Challenge Day 1

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Yesterday I weighed in at 310!!! today Iweighed in at 312.2 *grumbles* thank you Menudo and you million mg’s of sodium. Asshat. I should have known better but it was Menudo!!! damnit! *grumbles*
So this means that my official weigh in for this challenge is 312.2 which is 2.2 lbs bigger than yesterday.

Today was a whole pile of learning lessons!!! I learned that I still hate vitamins, not all shakes taste like ass, and I have a real addiction that came with real withdrawls. Let’s break it down, shall we!?

I love shaker bottles….

1. okay… First shake… chocolate… tastes like… chocolate cardboard. which is better than most shakes I’ve had… which taste like chocolate foot. Or worse, chocolate ass (I’m lookin at you, slimfast). It tastes like a liquid dry bar (Dry Bar – Definition – dry breakfast bar that cannot be eaten without liquid to chase it. Ex: Nutrigrain) and chocolate. it’s not bad. It’s tolerable. I mean we’ve all had horrible protein and meal replacement shakes. Whether it be EAS, Muscle Milk, Slim Fast or that crappy Special K nonsense. we all know just how bad that can be…. these are not nearly as bad as most. I might even venture to say it’s good. Of course not nearly as good as that one shake that is loaded with crazy sugar stuffs… :p (I’m lookin at you In N’ Out) but then I lost no weight with that shake LOL Just so ya know, this stuff is sweetened with fructose extract… look it up. It’s what makes fruit sweet.

2. Oh my god choking down vitamins. Let me just say “THANK YOU ALAN” for messaging me and reminding me to take my vitamins LOL I totally lied to you when I said I did. I was choking them down as you were messaging me. HAHA!! I hate taking vitamins. I’m just so bad with pills! I mean if it were not for google calendar telling me to take my birth control… well it would take a man as well, but you get the point! I know I need to with or without this challenge. I used to take a women’s health pack and hated it so much I just stopped, but damnit I need them, especially with my PCOS! I know that. holy crap tho… eeeww 😦 this has nothing to do with the product it’s just my serious hatred for pills LOL

3. okay… The Oatmeal Raisin bar has a strange spicey taste to it. not like spicey hot but spicey … flavorful. savory. almost middle eastern taste. It’s not bad. I don’t even like oatmeal and this isn’t bad. I’m eatin it! which makes it good. Tonight as my second bar I had the peanut butter crunch bar. HOLY MOLY that thing is good. That’s dangerous because suddenly I realized I had something in my regimen I like, A LOT.  I had to stop myself from getting another. And that is just another sign of my damned food addiction.

4. So major lesson #1: be on time with your meals and snacks because if not… you’ll be extremely sad irritable and frustrated if you’re in public surrounded by shitty food everywhere and you’re starving. I drank my late lunch and took a nap.

I know I have a food addiction. Duh! That’s why I created this blog, to face the ridiculousness of my eating habits. Today, it was blatent. Today I went out to get a few things for a project I’m working on and I realized something: Every craft store known to man perpetuates food and sugar addiction. They line their checkout aisles full of snacks. The Kind of snacks that would appeal to a lonely fat woman who’s at home with 6 cats knitting cat sweaters for the winter. I’m talking every type of higher end chocolate known to man plus other major sweets and tiny chip bags right next to stationary and tape. It’s crazy! It’s like hey, you’re standing here, why not eat some more crap!? 😀

I started to feel agitated. Irritable. Angry. I wanted to punch something. Punt a small woodland creature. Shake a baby. I wanted to immediately drive through every single drive thru between Hobby Lobby (I really hate this place by the way) and my house. I almost snapped my best friend’s head off for no reason. I drove like an aggressive asshole in a 1989 Corvette. Except I drive a Toyota Yaris. Which limits my ability to drive like an asshole LOL

I got home, looked at the clock and realized I was way late with my lunch shake. I was coming close to afternoon snack time. Which You would think isn’t a big deal, right!? WRONG! Apparently I’ve reverted back to a child with 6 small meals… 3 “meals” 3 “Snacks” and 1 damned nap. Yes I napped. I drank my VANILLA shake (which was surprisingly reminiscent to cake mix or maybe by this point I was so deliriously hungry that I made myself think it was birthday cake… more on this tomorrow) and crashed, getting fitful crappy sleep until I got up ate the amazing peanut butter crunch bar and actually fell asleep hardcore.

I almost missed gym time!

5. Gym, when drastically changing my diet, my body hates the gym. I ended up walking the treadmill for 50 minutes instead of running the elliptical for a full hour. I burned 500 calories which is my minimum goal and chilled out. It wasn’t bad and I know this week I’m not going to do my insane burns for fear of doing some nutritional damage. Or just being too damned tired from the change.

6. Grocery shopping sucks when you can’t eat anything you’re buying. So I bought myself fruits and veggies and tried not to cry while I passed up everything else. My recommendation, prepare prepare prepare! Grocery shop beforehand especially if you are doing it for more than just yourself. You will want to buy the dumbest foods ever because you become panicky that you’ll never get to eat those foods again. Foods like Beef Jerky. And Cheesecake. it’s not goin anywhere. stop freakin out!

7. Dinner: Hello tasty! So you know how parents say the most racist un-PC things ever sometimes? My mom’s favorite was the starving children in china line. Well… When you’re really hungry, anything tastes good. :p Tonight I decided to use my Veggie and Fruit servings with my dinner shake instead of as an after late night snack. And it was amazing!!!! I cut a pear into 4’s, added some broccoli and cauliflower, squeezed a buttload of lemon over everything and ate it. I ate like a starving Dickens character except I couldn’t say “please sir, may I have some more?”. It was so damned good I raved about it to my mom who then looked at me like I was batshit crazy.

8. Strawberry shake: oh strawberry… LOL this poor flavor has been so abused by so many companies. Look, you’re never gonna get it right so why make it??? it tasted like … crunch berries and gruel. This explains the major suggestions of blending it with my fruit serving LOL now I know. Bleh. Strawberry. HAHAHA oh well it could be worse. It could taste like the Muscle Milk strawberry which literally had a sickly sweet vomit like smell to it and tasted like ass. Swamp ass to be exact. At least it tasted the way I imagined swamp ass to taste like. I’ve never tasted swamp ass.

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All in all, it was a big learning lesson for day one. I’m sure my other blog posts won’t be so isanely long I just had a lot of firsts today. oddly enough, with the very little I’ve eaten today, I’m not hungry. 😀 that’s a good thing. I consider today a Win! 😀

ps. PM pack of vitamins went down so much easier with the shake than with water. Don’t quite know why… but it did. 🙂

NOW for my horrific before shots: these are hands down the worst photos I’ve ever had taken of me. I am wearing the most unflattering thing in my wardrobe. I’m being the fat chick in spandex. LOL legging capris and the ugliest tank top known to man (don’t worry I never wear this in public.) Thank you bestie for taking them. 🙂

 

 

Ups Downs and New Beginnings

First and foremost I would like to take a moment and address the woman who tried to kill my bestie and I at the gym last week via chemical warfare: OMG!!! why must you douse yourself in Cameo (stinky 80’s perfume) before coming to the gym? or do you go to work like that and reapply every two hours, murdering your co-workers in the process? Look, we’re all stinky people at the gym. I hate it when people give me bullshit like “Oh i really don’t stink.” or “I don’t sweat” well that’s because you’re not working hard enough. DUH.

Anyway, today I had a meeting with a great friend I met at my last job. Meeting is kinda a harsh word. we really hung out. and talked about everything!! 😀 He challanged me a few days ago regarding my weight loss and his product, Usana. I’m not a big supplement user. I don’t like the idea of using chemicals to replace food. Well, today was super informative. Plus, I got to eat Menudo.

He decided to hook me up with an Usana 5 day RESET kit. He’s big into the healthy lifestyle and I do trust him. I know He’s not going to put my goals in jeopardy for a sale. Especially because I am completely broke. So money is not a factor in this challenge. This is a personal thing between him and I. The reason we are doing this is because he wants me to cleanse. And I do too! I want a fresh start to my digestive system and what i choose to put into my body! Now this isn’t a hardcore cleanse. It’s a light cleanse and really what I’m looking for is more of a mental reset. I want to push myself to go to the next level and lose past the 21 lbs I’ve already lost. I seem to be kinda stuck.

Usana has been around for 20 years. No joke. Look it up. It’s Gluten Free!!! which is hugely important to me. It is also FDA approved and has been tested over and over again to make sure that it is not only safe, but healthy. The company doesn’t deal in just shakes and bars, it also deals in the highest level of over the counter vitamins on the market. (no kiddin i looked it up!) It also has a skin care line that is PARABENS free. That’s actually really hard to find these days. Companies will slip that shit into your beauty regimine without even telling you! Jerks!

Anyway I’m not here to sell the product. I’m here to test it. Starting tomorrow, I am doing the Reset. This will consist of 3 shakes a day and two snack bars. If I feel hungry I can supplement with fruits veggies and water. NO MORE PROCESSED FOOD other than the Usana product. This means my veggies will be flavored with.. LEMON juice squeezed by me. I’m goin hardcore!

Once the 5 day reset is done, I’ll post a before/after shot with before/after weights. I’ll also be posting every day about how it makes me feel physically. As the shakes have protein in it, I need to be matching my gym trips with my shake intake. 🙂 MATH! I can do it! 😀

I want to do this to reset my life. not just my fat ass.

I’ve looked into the ingredients in the product as well as the usage to make sure this was right for me and I am accepting this challenge. It’s not a permanent diet or one of those scary cleanses that make you feel like you’ve just crapped your lungs out. (graphic! hahaha) That’s important to me.

On a sadder note,

I came home told my mom and instead of supporting me (because that’s just not something she seems to have the ability to do when it comes to weight loss) she bashed me for it. She said “then it doesn’t work and you have to buy more” Being that I didn’t even buy this kit which is normally not a drop in the damned bucket I explained that I just wanted her support in my trying to live a healthier life and starting over in my food intake. I asked her why she couldn’t support that and she straight up told me she was looking at it from a business standpoint.

I sat in my room and cried for a moment before I took a deep breath and decided that I no longer needed her support. I have others for that.

So let’s see what happens. Tomorrow morning, you’ll get a full picture and description of day one LOL let’s hope this stuff doesn’t taste like crap!